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It’s been a long week, with my back and everything… It’s gradually getting better, but only slightly, and my chiro said there’s not much I can do besides letting it heal… He did give me a much-needed adjustment, so I’ll be be going back next week for a follow-up and possible massage as well… My left leg has also started to hurt, but could be a result of my back – who knows… I do feel more like myself today then I have for a while, so something must be improving… Let’s hope it continues because I need to finish decorating for Christmas! And start thinking about what to get everyone – oy vey!

I haven’t weighed myself because I haven’t been able to exercise and don’t think I should until I can walk w/out pain… This is very discouraging especially since I was starting to get back on track again and even got Eric to workout with me… Better to be safe than sorry I suppose…

Work had been busy, but is calming down a bit and will pick back up again soon… So many things are due to get published this month because (1) it’s December and (2) they have been pushed back for months… It’s good that we have 3 designers again, though one is still learning and the other takes a very long time (and also can’t multitask)… My boss and I often wonder how anyone, in today’s society, can have a job and not have to work on more than 1 project at a time… Heck, on some days I have at least 3 on my plate, if not more… It’s just part of the job…

Anyhoo, here are some pics from last weekend…

Happy Thursday… :)

Lollipop after haircut…

Waiting to see Santa…

Helping in the kitchen…

back to school

Wow, it’s Monday and I forgot to update last week… Well, not really – I’d been having some chest “aches” for a few days and managed to get in to see the doctor last Wednesday… After reading about Rosie’s heart attack online – I feared the worst, but after he looked at me and asked a bunch of questions, I was given an RX for Dexilant which is to treat acid reflux… I’ve never had heartburn in my life, so anything in the heart area is scary to me (my dad had heart problems which lead to a triple bypass – he was never the same after)… It was a never a stabbing pain, but more like a dull-ache that never got better/worse after eating, so my doc said to try it and if I’m not better in 2 weeks to come back… If the meds work, however, I should take them for 6 weeks and then see how I feel… I think yesterday was my first pain-free day in over a week so hopefully I’m on the mend…

Needless to say, between this and work – I haven’t been exercising as much (though the pain didn’t get worse while on the treadmill or lifting weights, and my diet has been “meh” to say the least)… Next week is vacation so I can’t see myself refocusing until we get back (broken record, right?)… I have a million things to prep @ work this week, a 50th anniverary party in PA on Saturday, packing/shopping on Sunday, and then we leave on Monday… /whew/

Things with Deck and bedtime have been improving, though it’s easier on nights where he’s tuckered-out… We were at a friend’s house yesterday so between that and a slight cold – he barely complained when I put him down… Hopefully tonight will be the same…

Happy Monday…

You know this isn’t a real dog, right?

@ lunch on Saturday…

growing like a weed

so much for keeping this blog up-to-date… the past week has been a blur with the holiday and all, and now we believe deck is going thru a growth spurt so evenings are rougher than usual and i’m feeding him constantly (or so it seems)… he appears to be okay during the day but as soon as 6:00 comes – he’s a different baby… i hope it passes soon because it’s taking quite the toll on me emotionally and physically… :(

thanksgiving was good – we went to my sister’s in western maryland and spent the day w/them, my brother, and my mom… deck was out of sorts for much of the day – he made the 3-hour drive w/out waking up but as soon as we got there, all hell broke loose and he was a mess for the rest of the day… i had to hold him while eating so i don’t remember much of the actual meal… on the following day, we headed to pittsburgh where he was a little better but still out of sorts – poor guy, so many new surroundings and people… we also had him sleep in this portable bed type thing and i didn’t like the fact that he was on the floor and not between us like at home… people kept saying that he won’t know where he is, but i did… unfortunately, the drive home from there is longer (4+ hours), we had to stop so i could do a diaper change and nurse… guess i’m not the only person who’s done that in the parking lot of a gas station… we came back saturday night to beat the sunday traffic and had the next day to just chill-out and relax…

this week has also been busy with doctor’s appointments – i had my 6-week OB checkup and he said everything looked good and that i can resume all pre-pregnancy activities (which have yet to happen because of the fussy baby)… i would LOVE to start exercising but can’t w/the way things are going right now – hopefully next week will be better… i can’t even think about starting WW again plus i heard there’s a new plan so i’ll have to do some research… i also went to the endocrinologist and was given the go-ahead to stop my daily lovenox shots – yay! so no more of those for me until we get pregnant again (if and when)… i also went to two different Targets to find a 3′ tree, 2 grocery stores, and a dollar store… poor deck, good thing he likes his car seat…

tomorrow, eric’s office is throwing us a baby shower so i’ll have to drive in to his office – hope i can deck and myself out of the door in time… i’ve been able to work around his eating schedule pretty well this week, but the way things are going right now – it’s anyone’s guess how it will go… not much i can do at this point besides give him the boob and be patient…

and ontop of all this – i’ve been trying to decorate for xmas and it’s not going well… i am so used to getting things out and getting everything done in a matter of a day or so, but the dining room has been a mess for days and i’m still only half done… i have to do things while deck’s sleeping and if i’m lucky, that’s about 2 hours during the day at this point… i keep wondering why i’m bothering this year, but damnit – it’s decks first xmas and i refuse to do things half-assed (it’s bad enough that we’re not getting a real tree)… i’ve tried using the sling too and he’s not liking it for some reason – maybe i’m doing it wrong but he seems really crammed in there… :(

sorry for all the debbie-downer stuff – its just been a rough few days… hope you had a nice holiday and here’s some pictures from our family visits… enjoy! :)








2-days in a row

we had more good news today… deck gained 10 oz. since last friday and is now above 8 lb. which is above and beyond what he should’ve gained, according to the doctor… nice job, baby boy! he’s now just a few oz. short of where he should be on the weight scale and she is very confident that he’ll keep moving in the right direction… she still wants me to pump for 10-minutes after each feeding and we’re to cut back on the formula, unless he needs it (i.e. doesn’t nurse well or the pacifier doesn’t soothe him)… this news really makes me feel better and yes, i know we still have a long way to go but at least he’s over the hump and making progress… thanks for all the words of encouragement… :)

the weather has been pretty rainy and cold today, so after we got back from the doctor – i rested for about an hour (don’t think i ever fell asleep) and then we caught-up on some shows we had on the DVR… we are fans of boardwalk empire and hoarders, and now walking dead which is on AMC – great show, if you’re into zombies… ;)

my thrift store shopping trip yesterday resulted in a few things, though trying on pants was rather discouraging… since i refused to try on size 18s, i somehow managed to find 2 pairs of jeans and a pair of pants (16s) as well as some shirts and a few sleepers for deck… i also found a harley-davidson tshirt but it’s way too big right now and will be perfect for next summer (hopefully)… :)

well, i guess i need to start thinking about dinner and getting deck awake for his next feeding… it’s pitch black outside and feels much later than 6:20 – certainly not liking this daylight savings time…

happy tuesday…

back to the drawing board

friday was not a good day – we went back to the doctor for a weight check and deck had lost 2 ounces since tuesday… i literally cried in the room after the nurse weighed him and felt like a complete failure… and to make matters worse, he hadn’t pooped for 2 days either and the doctor said it was because he wasn’t getting enough nourishment…. i can’t even feed my own baby, how sad is that?!?! i really felt like he had been eating better and i was making more of an effort to watch him while he nursed, but i guess i wasn’t… ugh, this is so frustrating! so the doctor said to start back with the formula again and bump it up to 1.5-2.0 ounces for the next few days and we’ll have his weight checked again on tuesday morning… i’m terried that he’ll gain and once i go back to just nursing – he’ll lose again… :(

so we’re back to the nursing, pumping, and supplementing schedule – thank god eric is still home and can help me because i’d be lost w/out him… he has been such a great help with feedings and is even getting up during the night to do the formula part (what a trooper!)… deck’s latest thing is peeing on him when he’s getting fed – have no idea how it’s happening but i swear, it’s like every time… pretty funny… :)

the weather has been so nice here in maryland – hard to believe thanksgiving is less than 2 weeks away… i took deck out in the bjorn earlier and liked it, though i had to make sure and walk slow so i wouldn’t lose my balance and fall (since more weight is in the front)… then again, maybe i’m just being paranoid…

i finally put up deck’s name/letters and some decals in the nursery today… i’ve already changed my mind about the one wall (with the dream & family words) and will put up his monthly photos instead… i think that would look nice and it will be cool to see how he changes each month, right before our eyes… :)

well, it’s almost time for another feeding, then we’re making pizza for dinner, and watching the steelers/patriots game… still hard to believe that around this time, 4 sundays ago, i was in labor and about to give birth to deck… damn time flies! :)

happy sunday…